“I realized that the deepest spiritual lessons are not learned by His letting us have our way in the end, but by His making us wait, bearing with us in love and patience until we are able to honestly pray what He taught His disciples to pray: Thy will be done…
I do know that waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one’s thoughts.” (Elisabeth Elliot)
Have you not heard?
Yahweh is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the whole earth.
He never grows faint or weary;
there is no limit to His understanding.
He gives strength to the weary
and strengthens the powerless.
Youths may faint and grow weary,
and young men stumble and fall,
but those who wait on the Lord
will gain new strength;
they will mount up with wings like eagles,
they will run and not get tired,
they will walk and not become weary. (Isaiah 40:31)
Wait for Him. You will be kept from fainting as you do. Your strength will be renewed, like the returned strength of an eagle as he wings upward. And as you wait, fiercely, with whatever strength you do have, seek Him. Seek to be able to honestly pray: Thy will be done. With resolution, practice an intentional turning of your heart and mind away from the thing waited for and toward the One who bears with you in love and patience. As you turn toward Him, pour out your heart. Admit your fears. Lay your feebleness before Him, and ask Him to transform your heart. For He is the everlasting Father. He knows and understands. He cares. God answers prayer.
And without the strength His Holy Spirit gives, you can do nothing. Especially not wait.
So, when the unanswered question intrudes upon your thoughts, again and again and again, lift your heart to God, and nowhere else. Learn that having your way is not the highest life goal, but rather, knowing, trusting, loving the One who knows and loves you.
His highest goal for you is that you would find your all in Him: For in that finding, your life is altered. You truly are able to mount up with wings like an eagle. You truly can, no matter the unanswered question, run and not get tired, walk and not grow weary.
Pray now that when your coming year asks you to wait, you’ll be able to do so; lifting your heart to the Lord, bearing the uncertainty, filled with supernatural trust and hope.
But for you, O Lord, do I wait; it is you, O Lord my God, who will answer. (Ps. 38:15)