“…many people want to negotiate the cost rather than count it. That is, they are willing to give up things, but they won’t give up the right to determine what those things are.”(Tim Keller)
Jesus said to them, “But who do you say that I am?” Simon Peter replied, “You are the Christ, the Son of the living God.” (Matthew 16:15-16)
Jesus really is God come to earth. He really is the way to the Father; to the relationship for which you were created; to the life, full and free, for which you yearn. He knows best. He is best.
You may think you want to negotiate the cost of belonging to Him. Or you may think you’re willing to give up things to follow Him, but want to hold onto the right to determine what those things are.
But you don’t.
You really don’t want to be in charge. You don’t want to negotiate either the cost of being His disciple, or the prospect of giving up your hold on certain parts of your earthly kingdom. You really want Him to determine all things for you.
You really do.
Father, today, on the path you have for me, I want to count the cost, with joy, of being your disciple. I want to count, not negotiate. I want to move throughout this day aware of your great love for me; amazed that I get to know you; confident that, on this day, whatever the cost, you have the right to determine what I should give up; confident that you know my beginning from my end, and that you don’t plan frivolously. You plan only good. I want what you want for me.
I really do.